This post is a life update for everyone who wants to know where I have been and what I have done. I know I’m not the social media butterfly I once was. I do this for my sanity and peace of mind. I have less and less time to be active on social media and talk to people who want to talk to me. I only interact with what I need and mostly browse FB reels.
It's better this way, I'm not afraid of being afraid, because what I've realized over the past few months is that if you're not on Facebook or Instagram, even to the people you think are your friends, it's like you don't exist . I think that's the way the world is now. Everyone just wants to survive. The fake ones are fine.
end of the world
I sound like Carol from Carol and the End of the World, a character in the Netflix cartoon series that depicts the depressing state of people and the world as the world comes to an end. This is a great show that reflects on our struggles and how people cope or don't cope when facing personal crises. You should pay attention to it. My heart was pricked many times while watching each episode. It's so profound and so real to me right now. It helps me cry.
I haven’t cried that much since my mother passed away on March 16, 2024. Yes, my beautiful, funny, caring, loving mother left this physical plane and joined the energy of the universe. I can't see her or touch her, but as long as I live, she will always be in my heart. I love you, Mom, and I hope your dementia doesn’t take away your wonderful energy sooner, and that you get the chance to experience the happiness you wish to see from me.
happiness and sadness
The funny thing is, I feel this internal struggle of happiness and sadness at the same time. I should be celebrating my happiness, but I can’t celebrate it fully because I’m grieving your loss too. I feel like a crazy person, but I don't think so. I'm going through some milestones in my life at the same time,
The tightest circle in my life knows why I am happy. I want to broadcast it to the world, but not now. Not everyone needs to know at this point because everyone can judge me or take away my opportunity to celebrate boldly when I just lost my mother. My mother knew it before she died.
You will understand when you understand the story behind it. If you have known me for a long time and are friends, you will be happy for me too. It's just that things happen so fast and so slowly at the same time. Everything happens at the same time, like everything happens at the same time.
When you see me, you probably see a calm, collected version of me. If we had never met, or if you were one of the people I’ve forgotten about due to the brain fog I’ve had since Covid-19, you might even think of me as cold and distant. The epidemic has changed me a lot. I used to like being with people and traveling. Now I don’t like crowds and I hate wasting time in traffic when traveling.
time thief
Maybe in the third quarter of this year, I will make a comeback, like a phoenix rising from the ashes. If I like the product/brand or the people I see at the event, I may show up once in a while. Hello or no hello, I don't bite. I may show signs of annoyance because I'm always late for events and I hate wasting time that I could be spending elsewhere instead of waiting for people who don't respect other people's time.
There may be some people who have more time to waste because they feel they are maximizing their own time by wasting other people's time. Damn you old thieves, you know who you are. They are those who want to be everywhere at the same time because they feel important or needed everywhere. This is a form of effectiveness. I don’t blame them, like I said at the beginning of the post, if you’re not a social butterfly, you’re as good as not existing.
Anyway, this is a rant and life update, but I vaguely said whatever you wanted to know. If you did read it, you probably just read it as a snob. More likely, you just glanced at it, then raised your eyebrows and giggled.
How can you possibly understand how I feel if you don't even know me? It's like the biggest problem in the world, comprehension, reading comprehension. Do people read books now? Or if they read, do they understand what they are reading?
I just lost my train of thought, I had a good analogy but I couldn't remember what it was.
Loss of funds
All the events in my life are draining/draining all my financial resources and I have no savings right now, which sucks to admit but it's true. Money is one of the reasons why people feel depressed. Money is the root of all evil and the root of all good. I want money to do good, not even to do evil.if you have a Rocket For me, just give me a shout and I'll be there.
Yes, money is a big motivator. Having all the money you need makes your life comfortable, and I want to be like that, comfortable.
still blogging
Anyway, I haven't left my blogger hat yet. Even though I don’t have social media, I still have my blog. A blog is not Facebook, Instagram, or TikTok, but an actual personal website that you can visit at any time. Like I mentioned before, if I like the brand, the people, the service, or the compensation, and I have the time, I will post. So please feel free to invite me and fill my email again with your event invitations and press releases.
That's it for now. I hope you are all well. If not, I hope you have someone to talk to and that will help.
Thanks for the blog. Thank you all for reading. Stay beautiful everyone!
